Height - 5'7" Weight - 208.2 lbs
Yep. I did it. One of the hardest things EVER for a woman to do. I posted that number. That awful, disgusting number. No, I'm not happy with it. No, it shouldn't be that high.
I have absolutely nobody to blame but myself for it. While I blame it on the fact that I'm busy, about to graduate college and look for a real job. Or because I work 40 hours a week at my internship Or because I work on the 6th day I'm not at my internship. Or that I have a class. Or I play volleyball two nights a week. Or that I'm in two honor societies and in a workshop to earn a leadership certificate. Or because I buy my own groceries. Or because I don't have time to workout.
There are NO EXCUSES.
I almost cried the first time I reached a weight over 200 lbs. In society today, it isn't normal for girls. The things the media force feeds us in magazines..we all know that it isn't real, but still have that weird feeling that we should try and look like the models do. But for their height and weight, it's unhealthy.
So how do we get past that?
We truly have to believe in ourselves and in our hearts that we are beautiful no matter what. Also, we need to know we have people who love us for who we are right now.
We may not be happy with how we look, and we can change that if we'd like.
Today, I ate pretty clean (except for my usual onion bagel with garlic spread in the morning) which I just did because I don't want the bagels to go stale. I also did day 1 of Hip Hop abs and a 30 minute cardio workout from Pinterest
I'm going to make this first post a little longer because I really have so much to say.
I began doing Insanity around the last week or two of December in 2011. I didn't get to finish it the first time because my grandma had passed 2 weeks before I would have been done (in February 2012). Emotionally, there was no way I could have finished. So, I tried it again next year in December 2013 and finished the day after she had passed one year prior. I kept saying I did it for her and helped use her passing to motivate me because it's what she would have wanted, but deep down I knew I did it for MYSELF.
The last day of Insanity, I began the Advocare diet. I'm not about to preach to you what's right or what's wrong, but it did work. I cheated a lot more towards the end because it was midterm week but it is hard to eat as clean as they ask for 24 days straight, ESPECIALLY when you're a picky eater like I am.
I lost 13 lbs with Insanity, and another 15 with Advocare. Just in time to hop a plane to St. Croix for vacation, and then my 21st birthday a week later.
After that, I pretty much ate whatever I wanted, didn't care about the nutrition value whatsoever, and gained back the weight nearly just as fast as I had lost it. Want to know why?
I didn't keep up with exercising or the healthy eating choices I had been making.
College got stressful. Again though, no excuses for that.
So here I stand nearly 15 lbs MORE than what I was when I started in December 2012.
I hope you're buckled in..it's going to be a bumpy ride.